Not a very good blogger, am I? Meh. Maybe that should be a new-year resolution for me? I can't be bothered with those - I generally fail anyways. I do, however, want to be more cultured this year: see more plays, go to more museums/art galleries, read classic literature ... I have a ton of those free on the iPad, so why not!
I started the year off right and went to the Chinese Terracotta Warriors exhibition at the ROM with Giggles. It was interesting to learn that even in 210 BC they had plumbing and dildos. Just goes to show that across all the ages, women can never be pleased!
We followed that up the next with a back-to-back movie date for Black Swan and Voyage of the Dawn Treader. Liked Black Swan, but was a little disturbed by it, but that was the purpose of the movie, I guess. Natalie Portman was great!
Dawn Treader - the third instalment of the Chronicles of Narnia, was a little lighter in spirit! I love this series and I do hope they bring back Eustace for the fourth instalment. He was great! Everything a snotty British brat should be!
I ended off the week by retaking my G1 license! Once upon a time, I did have my license ... but then bla bla bla, I failed, it expired, yadda yadda and I never went back. I always joked with my little cousin, who's not so little anymore, whenever he asked me when I was going to drive again, I'd tell him I'd go for my license when he did - so, in keeping with my promise, we both went for our G1 licenses! Now, much to Mar's disappointment LOL I get to drive the Subaru muahahahaha! Haven't gone driving yet, though. We are waiting for our Insurance Broker to updated our car insurance policy.
I guess that's all my excitement for now. Other than planning more details for the wedding...
~M
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
To Poon, or not to Poon.
I really appreciate the free healthcare in this country of ours, I do. Sometimes, however, the service provided by those employed under such a healthcare system can be less than, what's a word ... gratifying? It seems to me that if we were to pay the Doctor for each visit, they would be more doctorly, more supportive, more helpful and accomodating.
My Doctor recently referred me to Dr. Poon and his "Metabolic Diet". At my height and weight I'm considered "morbidly obese"! Isn't that just the most horrible diagnosis ever?? Like I should have my own TLC reality series or something! Anyways, I've been registered with Weight Watchers for about a year now and I was doing so well, so well! Then I fell off the wagon and have been trying to get back on track, but I decided to consider Dr. Poon thinking that, maybe, with medical supervision I'd do better.
Dr. Poon's Metabolic Diet is covered under OHIP and the principle is easy: low in sugar, starches, fats and sodium. It's a fair principle, logical. Same principle really as in all weight loss programs, just a different marketing strategy!!
So, today I went in for my initial consultation and for starters, the location is putting this venture on the DO NOT ATTEMPT pile. It's in Brampton! If I drove, it would've been easier. I had to take the day off of work AND it took me two hours to get to the clinic.
Got there, filled out some forms, they called my name. I got weighed and had my neck measured!?! Don't ask, because I didn't. They gave me a handout, saying: "Here's the program and the list of foods you can eat. When you go in to see the Doctor, he'll explain in better detail."
I only waited a couple of minutes for him, Doctor Bailey. He took my blood pressure b/c I had marked off on the chart that, according to my own Doctor, I had blood pressure, but between you and I, it's only when I go see her that it's high.
Moving on. He told me to read through the handout and let him know if I have any questions. "No fruit, at all?" "No, not in Phase 1. We'll slowly introduce it into Phase 2, which you'll start when you loose 30lbs. Any other questions? No? Okay. Well, let's take you to the other room where we have some food productst that you can purchase." Um, okay. That's it? I bused my ass for two hours to see him and that's all he had for me? No going over the program? No what's expected? No how the program is suppose to work? No what is "metabolic diet"? Strike two.
He put my chart into another's slot for a metabolic testing, where'd they'd measure my metabolic state which would be helpful in designing an exercise program for me. This part of the program was not covered by OHIP, it'd be covered by my private health insurance.
I perused the little market and made some purchases to start me off: 0 calorie jam and ranch dressing, flax-seed bread and a bottle of "metabolic" vitamims ... cha-ching ... $56. Strike three.
I got in to see John, the metabolic tester or whatever. He attached me to a ventilator-type thing, told me to rest and breathe normally for about 10 minutes. After those 10 minutes, the test printed out some stats relating to caloric zones, but I can't really see any of the stats b/c the printer ran out of ink. Strike four. Apparently, my metabolism is at a normal rate and we need to move it up to a fast rate. Duh!! He took me into his office to discuss and kept referring to his net book to see the England vs Slovania game. Strike five.
This exercise program would be supervised by chiropactors, physiotherapists and the like. They'd design a program for me and I'd have to commit to 3 times a week. Again, in Brampton. At this strike, I told him right off the bat and I would most likely not be committing to it b/c I lived in Mississauga and had to bus it. He's suppose to call me in a month to follow-up.
The program is designed to work, and I would fully committ to it if it wasn't for the inconvenience of it being in Brampton. It's just too far to get to every two weeks. That is not what I want to spend my vacation days on!
On the bus ride home I decided that I'd try to committ more to Weight Watchers and incorporate some of the Dr. Poon principles. I'd be loosing 5lbs a week or something ridiculous. Really? I already ordered my wedding dress and although I would like to go down a couple of dress sizes, I do not want to have it altered too repeatedly.
Anyways, we'll see what happens. I have an appointment for three weeks from now and I'll most likely cancel. I need more support for this type of venture and their medical team wasn't any at all!!! With Weight Watchers I have that support from my friends and from Lucy, our program leader.
~M
My Doctor recently referred me to Dr. Poon and his "Metabolic Diet". At my height and weight I'm considered "morbidly obese"! Isn't that just the most horrible diagnosis ever?? Like I should have my own TLC reality series or something! Anyways, I've been registered with Weight Watchers for about a year now and I was doing so well, so well! Then I fell off the wagon and have been trying to get back on track, but I decided to consider Dr. Poon thinking that, maybe, with medical supervision I'd do better.
Dr. Poon's Metabolic Diet is covered under OHIP and the principle is easy: low in sugar, starches, fats and sodium. It's a fair principle, logical. Same principle really as in all weight loss programs, just a different marketing strategy!!
So, today I went in for my initial consultation and for starters, the location is putting this venture on the DO NOT ATTEMPT pile. It's in Brampton! If I drove, it would've been easier. I had to take the day off of work AND it took me two hours to get to the clinic.
Got there, filled out some forms, they called my name. I got weighed and had my neck measured!?! Don't ask, because I didn't. They gave me a handout, saying: "Here's the program and the list of foods you can eat. When you go in to see the Doctor, he'll explain in better detail."
I only waited a couple of minutes for him, Doctor Bailey. He took my blood pressure b/c I had marked off on the chart that, according to my own Doctor, I had blood pressure, but between you and I, it's only when I go see her that it's high.
Moving on. He told me to read through the handout and let him know if I have any questions. "No fruit, at all?" "No, not in Phase 1. We'll slowly introduce it into Phase 2, which you'll start when you loose 30lbs. Any other questions? No? Okay. Well, let's take you to the other room where we have some food productst that you can purchase." Um, okay. That's it? I bused my ass for two hours to see him and that's all he had for me? No going over the program? No what's expected? No how the program is suppose to work? No what is "metabolic diet"? Strike two.
He put my chart into another's slot for a metabolic testing, where'd they'd measure my metabolic state which would be helpful in designing an exercise program for me. This part of the program was not covered by OHIP, it'd be covered by my private health insurance.
I perused the little market and made some purchases to start me off: 0 calorie jam and ranch dressing, flax-seed bread and a bottle of "metabolic" vitamims ... cha-ching ... $56. Strike three.
I got in to see John, the metabolic tester or whatever. He attached me to a ventilator-type thing, told me to rest and breathe normally for about 10 minutes. After those 10 minutes, the test printed out some stats relating to caloric zones, but I can't really see any of the stats b/c the printer ran out of ink. Strike four. Apparently, my metabolism is at a normal rate and we need to move it up to a fast rate. Duh!! He took me into his office to discuss and kept referring to his net book to see the England vs Slovania game. Strike five.
This exercise program would be supervised by chiropactors, physiotherapists and the like. They'd design a program for me and I'd have to commit to 3 times a week. Again, in Brampton. At this strike, I told him right off the bat and I would most likely not be committing to it b/c I lived in Mississauga and had to bus it. He's suppose to call me in a month to follow-up.
The program is designed to work, and I would fully committ to it if it wasn't for the inconvenience of it being in Brampton. It's just too far to get to every two weeks. That is not what I want to spend my vacation days on!
On the bus ride home I decided that I'd try to committ more to Weight Watchers and incorporate some of the Dr. Poon principles. I'd be loosing 5lbs a week or something ridiculous. Really? I already ordered my wedding dress and although I would like to go down a couple of dress sizes, I do not want to have it altered too repeatedly.
Anyways, we'll see what happens. I have an appointment for three weeks from now and I'll most likely cancel. I need more support for this type of venture and their medical team wasn't any at all!!! With Weight Watchers I have that support from my friends and from Lucy, our program leader.
~M
Friday, April 30, 2010
Miss Maggy's Book of Awesome - Chapter 1
There's a book that has just been released: The Book of Awesome. It started out as a blog about the little things that made the author happy ... b/c, you know, there's a bunch of BIG stuff that doesn't. I guess this guy was just trying to focus on the little things, like: Don't Sweat the Small Stuff.
Anyways, I think I'm going to start my own Book of Awesome.
Awesome Thing #1: Second Cup
Second Cup opened up across the street from work a while ago (last year, maybe?) Anyways, I never really understood getting regular plain coffee with a 400% mark-up, so I indulge in the lattes, moccacinos, icepressos ... the fancy stuff. But it isn't only the fancy moccas and lattes that I like about that place, it's the service, the staff!
When I first started going there, I'd almost always have a moccacino and after a while, once I was a regular, Brian knew exactly what I wanted. It was nice! After a while, I moved on to skinny, sugar-free vanilla bean lattes. Mmm mmm good! Again, he'd get used to what I liked and would know it as soon as I came in.
Today I went in, looking to have something different and I asked for a mocca and he remembered it was my drink of choice when I first started going there!!!! How awesome is that? It's been, what, months? Maybe even over a year, and he remembered I was a regular mocca-er! (mocca-er? whatever, it's my blog, I can make up words if I want!)
Second Cup is great! They know their customers by name, they make nice conversation, they give us free coffee on our birthdays. Second Cup is an Awesome Thing!
~M
Anyways, I think I'm going to start my own Book of Awesome.
Awesome Thing #1: Second Cup
Second Cup opened up across the street from work a while ago (last year, maybe?) Anyways, I never really understood getting regular plain coffee with a 400% mark-up, so I indulge in the lattes, moccacinos, icepressos ... the fancy stuff. But it isn't only the fancy moccas and lattes that I like about that place, it's the service, the staff!
When I first started going there, I'd almost always have a moccacino and after a while, once I was a regular, Brian knew exactly what I wanted. It was nice! After a while, I moved on to skinny, sugar-free vanilla bean lattes. Mmm mmm good! Again, he'd get used to what I liked and would know it as soon as I came in.
Today I went in, looking to have something different and I asked for a mocca and he remembered it was my drink of choice when I first started going there!!!! How awesome is that? It's been, what, months? Maybe even over a year, and he remembered I was a regular mocca-er! (mocca-er? whatever, it's my blog, I can make up words if I want!)
Second Cup is great! They know their customers by name, they make nice conversation, they give us free coffee on our birthdays. Second Cup is an Awesome Thing!
~M
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Happenings of Late
So, I don't keep up with my blogging much - even though I might have much going through my mind and need some type of outlet for it b/c I'm not the "let's share what you're feeling" type. Some things are just better off left in my head.
Anyways, hear ye, hear ye! I'm engaged! Mario proposed on June 30th with a beautiful bouquet of roses and, of course, the ring. I loved the ring! I picked out the ring! I was always dead set on having a pink-stone engagement ring, and I made sure I got it. Diamonds are some girls' best friend, but mine is a beautiful pink tourmaline and if it makes you feel better, there are diamonds around it!
They say the rule of thumb for an engagement ring price is three times your salary. WHAT!?!?! That's, like, FOUR mortgage payments, which to me is more important right now seeing as we've also bought a house. That kind of budget was way unrealistic for us, and even if it wasn't, really, what's the point? You're not buying love, you're buying bragging rights.
So, my ring was inexpensive, but it's beautiful and I love it and it means the same to me as a $7,000 ring would. Actually, it means more because it came along with so much else. It came along with a house that we will build a home in and raise our children in. It came along with a home for my parents to grow old in (FYI: my parents are moving in with us!). It came along with a love that I always thought impossible, a love that I sometimes have little faith in b/c sometimes I still can't believe it's real and with that, the joy of being proven wrong every single time!
We haven't yet set a wedding date. We're looking at May 2011. Ideally, I would've liked to have it next year, in September, but that will prove a bit tight on the finances. We want to be settled down with the house and the all of our expenses and have some time to put extra money aside, so, early 2011 it is! But not too early because I hate cold weather and snow. I think May is a good month. Spring is well on its way by then, there'll be flowers and pretty colours all around. It might still be a bit chilly, but it'll be a "summer is coming chilly" not a "we might get snow chilly".
We will be official home-owners as of July 24th, 2009. It's a semi-detached, raised-bungalow, three bedroom (soon to be four) house. The basement is finished with its own kitchen and full washroom, which will be my parents' living area. Upstairs, we have a second kitchen, another full bathroom and three bedrooms, and that will be mine and Mario's living area. We need the extra bedrooms for forthcoming children and the smallest one for our computer/catch-all area. It's in a great area and my kids will get to go to the same highschool I did (if it's still around!).
I've started packing my books b/c those take up most of the boxes and the most time. Regardless, we're not in too much of a rush because we still have our apartment until August 20th, so we can take our time with things. The weekend we get the keys, my parents are moving over completely into the lower-level and upstairs, we're just going to paint before we bring in our stuff.
It's so exciting, so overwhelming, and I'm enjoying every minute of it. Once I'm settled down in the house, it's on to wedding plans. I already have a general idea of what I want and just need to price things and find the right sources. That's all in another post.
Until then ... ~M
Anyways, hear ye, hear ye! I'm engaged! Mario proposed on June 30th with a beautiful bouquet of roses and, of course, the ring. I loved the ring! I picked out the ring! I was always dead set on having a pink-stone engagement ring, and I made sure I got it. Diamonds are some girls' best friend, but mine is a beautiful pink tourmaline and if it makes you feel better, there are diamonds around it!
They say the rule of thumb for an engagement ring price is three times your salary. WHAT!?!?! That's, like, FOUR mortgage payments, which to me is more important right now seeing as we've also bought a house. That kind of budget was way unrealistic for us, and even if it wasn't, really, what's the point? You're not buying love, you're buying bragging rights.
So, my ring was inexpensive, but it's beautiful and I love it and it means the same to me as a $7,000 ring would. Actually, it means more because it came along with so much else. It came along with a house that we will build a home in and raise our children in. It came along with a home for my parents to grow old in (FYI: my parents are moving in with us!). It came along with a love that I always thought impossible, a love that I sometimes have little faith in b/c sometimes I still can't believe it's real and with that, the joy of being proven wrong every single time!
We haven't yet set a wedding date. We're looking at May 2011. Ideally, I would've liked to have it next year, in September, but that will prove a bit tight on the finances. We want to be settled down with the house and the all of our expenses and have some time to put extra money aside, so, early 2011 it is! But not too early because I hate cold weather and snow. I think May is a good month. Spring is well on its way by then, there'll be flowers and pretty colours all around. It might still be a bit chilly, but it'll be a "summer is coming chilly" not a "we might get snow chilly".
We will be official home-owners as of July 24th, 2009. It's a semi-detached, raised-bungalow, three bedroom (soon to be four) house. The basement is finished with its own kitchen and full washroom, which will be my parents' living area. Upstairs, we have a second kitchen, another full bathroom and three bedrooms, and that will be mine and Mario's living area. We need the extra bedrooms for forthcoming children and the smallest one for our computer/catch-all area. It's in a great area and my kids will get to go to the same highschool I did (if it's still around!).
I've started packing my books b/c those take up most of the boxes and the most time. Regardless, we're not in too much of a rush because we still have our apartment until August 20th, so we can take our time with things. The weekend we get the keys, my parents are moving over completely into the lower-level and upstairs, we're just going to paint before we bring in our stuff.
It's so exciting, so overwhelming, and I'm enjoying every minute of it. Once I'm settled down in the house, it's on to wedding plans. I already have a general idea of what I want and just need to price things and find the right sources. That's all in another post.
Until then ... ~M
Thursday, November 13, 2008
State of Shock now on tour with Staind
So, one of my favourite new bands, State of Shock, is on tour now with Staind.
Their one Toronto date is on a Monday, and unfortunately I can't go see them this time around, but I'll catch them next time.
I got to meet them when I saw Hedley in concert at the Kool Haus in January. They were such nice people. My friend and I got to take pics and get their autograph.
Check them out at www.stateofshock.com ... they're worth a listen.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Harry! Hary! Whyfore art though postponed?
I thought I'd spice up my blog with a video, since I haven't ventured that far yet. So, my featured video today is a teaser trailer for Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.
Doesn't it look awesome!?! Ooooh! I'm so excited for it! The kid playing Tom Riddle looks like he has the part down pretty good.
Um, yah, I'm hopelessly addicted to Harry Potter. I'm not a fanatic fan, where my room is decorated like Harry's and I have a replica wand and every figurine/toy, etc. - although, I wouldn't mind having a wand and I've considered getting a Harry Potter-related tattoo.
I became a fan of the movies before I became a fan of the books. I watched The Philosopher's Stone and Chamber of Secrets before going out to buy the books and devouring them one right after the other! When Half-Blood Prince was released, I re-read the series to prepare myself and then again before Deathly Hallows was released. I actually attended the midnight release for the last book. Not the fun ones at Chapters/Indigo or Casa Loma, but at a department store where my cousin was working. I went home once I had my book and immediately got right to it. I tried to fight off sleep because, mind you, it was way past one o'clock in the morning, but I decided to indulge in the book over a couple of days so it wouldn't be over too quickly. It was, after all, the very last book in the series. A sad even, indeed!
People kinda laugh at me when I tell them I read Harry Potter because it's a kids book, but I think any age could learn a thing or two from the story.
For my Introduction to Fantasy in Children's Literature we read The Philosopher's Stone and my answers to the reading questions just came flowing! When we had to do a book review for an assignment, guess which book I choose? The Chamber of Secrets. When we had to come up with a curriculum for kids based on a book, guess what book I chose? The Philospher's Stone. I did really well in that class. Thank you Harry Potter!
I really look forward to the movies as well. They're very well done. Sometimes I'm disappointed with how much detail they leave out, but the movies are just adaptations of the story and only focus on the main story line and I should be content with that. I am not happy, however, that Half-Blood Prince has been postponed from November this year to July of NEXT year! Booourns, Warner Bros. BoooURNS!!
I also like going on the forums and fansites. It's amazing how much interest these books have generated within kids and adults alike. Yes, it's just a story about magic and wizards, but it got so many kids reading and using their brains and communicating with other fans. It got kids writing as well. Some of the fan-fic I've read is just so full of imagination, I was so impressed that kids are not just busying themselves with video games. J.K. Rowling got a generation of iPod, PSP, and Internet-savvy kids back to good, ol'fashioned reading and writing. How amazing is that? Kudos to her.
Anyways, I could go on for hours talking about Harry Potter so I'll stop now.
To fill the void of not having any new Harry Potter stories, I've picked up Twilight by Stephenie Meyer. It's another teen series about vampires. I'm really into the first book. The movie adaptation is coming out later this year and guess who's the main star? Robert Pattison .... who played Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. You know how there was this big thing back in the day about 6 Degrees of Kevin Bacon or something? Well, I'm sure I could do the same thing with Harry Potter. ~M
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
A meeting with the ghost of relationship-past
This weekend Mar and I headed over to Savvy's for a BBQ and it was a lot of fun. My cousin Sam was there, and she's always a laugh. A couple of Savvy's work friends were there as were her parents and her cousin Frank ... *eek!*
Okay, so, Frank and I go way back ... like, 8 years back. He's the cause for my cynicism when it comes to love and relationships. I spent prime years, my early twenties, hung up on him, waiting, wanting and got nowhere. Whether he had feelings for me or not is still a mystery b/c he never let on. It was those types of situations where everyone else assumed we were b/f & g/f but we never really were. We went everywhere together and hung out all the time ... heck, we even exchanged saliva on a couple of occasions, but we I was never his "girlfriend". Although, people would refer to me as his g/f and he would never stop them and correct them. Oh, and one time, while I was in the room, someone asked him if he had a g/f and he said: "not officially." WTF is that? Anyways. Yah, that's how I spent a few years - wondering am I or am I not? The kicker is that when I showed interest for other guys, he'd bitch me out like no one's business. Telling me I should work on getting over my feelings for him before throwing myself at other guys or .... wait for it ..... prostituting myself! His exact words. I SWEAR!!!! Doesn't prostitution involve sex and money? I wasn't getting either so I don't know where he got that I was "prostituting" myself from. After a while I had had enough. I knew we were going nowhere and I'd taken all the humiliation possible. I wanted a boyfriend, dammit, and he wasn't gonna cut it. So, I stopped going out with him. We'd still chat once in a while and even go to the odd movie together and we'd see each other at Savvy's, but that was it until a few months ago when he started acting all stupid on F/b. Everytime I'd write something on his wall or his pictures he'd delete it. I had asked him a question on his wall, a valid one at that, about his status and he never replied, so I asked again and then I noticed he had deleted both of my posts. So I asked him why he'd done that. He said he was cleaning up his profile and was deleting some of his applications. I'm like, WTF, it was a wall post, I'm not an application! He never answered back, so I deleted him off of my friends' list and haven't talked to him since ......... until Saturday, that is. He had sent me another friend request a couple of months ago and I ignored it. I think he just wanted to be nosey about Mar and I.
So, on Saturday, I said "Hi." and we briefly chatted about my uncle who's in the hospital, but that was it. I didn't even introduce him to Mar, Savvy's dad did that. Mar doesn't even know that his the one. He knows I'd had issues with a guy before, but I haven't yet told him it was with him. I'm actually glad he was there so he can see how happy I am and how what he couldn't appreciate now belongs to someone who knows how to appreciate it and is appreciating it good!
I think that he thought that with someone like me, he would be my only chance and it made him feel good about his selfish, almighty ego that he brushed me off, time and time again and I just kept on hanging on, waiting and wanting. Well. Ha! I now have someone who can and wants to return my feelings. No more games.
I don't regret anything that happened with Frank though. Yes, I was bitter for a very long time, but if it hadn't happened that way I would've never met Mar and I would've never found out how wonderful it is to have someone love you back. I wouldn't trade Mar in for anything in this world. Not even if Frank all of a sudden had an epiphany and came to beg for forgiveness encrusted with diamonds.
I love my Mar and I love that he loves me so I guess all those years I spent waiting for and wanting Frank weren't such a waste after all. ~ M
Okay, so, Frank and I go way back ... like, 8 years back. He's the cause for my cynicism when it comes to love and relationships. I spent prime years, my early twenties, hung up on him, waiting, wanting and got nowhere. Whether he had feelings for me or not is still a mystery b/c he never let on. It was those types of situations where everyone else assumed we were b/f & g/f but we never really were. We went everywhere together and hung out all the time ... heck, we even exchanged saliva on a couple of occasions, but we I was never his "girlfriend". Although, people would refer to me as his g/f and he would never stop them and correct them. Oh, and one time, while I was in the room, someone asked him if he had a g/f and he said: "not officially." WTF is that? Anyways. Yah, that's how I spent a few years - wondering am I or am I not? The kicker is that when I showed interest for other guys, he'd bitch me out like no one's business. Telling me I should work on getting over my feelings for him before throwing myself at other guys or .... wait for it ..... prostituting myself! His exact words. I SWEAR!!!! Doesn't prostitution involve sex and money? I wasn't getting either so I don't know where he got that I was "prostituting" myself from. After a while I had had enough. I knew we were going nowhere and I'd taken all the humiliation possible. I wanted a boyfriend, dammit, and he wasn't gonna cut it. So, I stopped going out with him. We'd still chat once in a while and even go to the odd movie together and we'd see each other at Savvy's, but that was it until a few months ago when he started acting all stupid on F/b. Everytime I'd write something on his wall or his pictures he'd delete it. I had asked him a question on his wall, a valid one at that, about his status and he never replied, so I asked again and then I noticed he had deleted both of my posts. So I asked him why he'd done that. He said he was cleaning up his profile and was deleting some of his applications. I'm like, WTF, it was a wall post, I'm not an application! He never answered back, so I deleted him off of my friends' list and haven't talked to him since ......... until Saturday, that is. He had sent me another friend request a couple of months ago and I ignored it. I think he just wanted to be nosey about Mar and I.
So, on Saturday, I said "Hi." and we briefly chatted about my uncle who's in the hospital, but that was it. I didn't even introduce him to Mar, Savvy's dad did that. Mar doesn't even know that his the one. He knows I'd had issues with a guy before, but I haven't yet told him it was with him. I'm actually glad he was there so he can see how happy I am and how what he couldn't appreciate now belongs to someone who knows how to appreciate it and is appreciating it good!
I think that he thought that with someone like me, he would be my only chance and it made him feel good about his selfish, almighty ego that he brushed me off, time and time again and I just kept on hanging on, waiting and wanting. Well. Ha! I now have someone who can and wants to return my feelings. No more games.
I don't regret anything that happened with Frank though. Yes, I was bitter for a very long time, but if it hadn't happened that way I would've never met Mar and I would've never found out how wonderful it is to have someone love you back. I wouldn't trade Mar in for anything in this world. Not even if Frank all of a sudden had an epiphany and came to beg for forgiveness encrusted with diamonds.
I love my Mar and I love that he loves me so I guess all those years I spent waiting for and wanting Frank weren't such a waste after all. ~ M
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